At some point in each episode, I realize that I am losing control. I refer to this as “falling down the rabbit hole,” a reference to Alice in Wonderland. This clip from the 2010 Alice in Wonderland film accurately portrays my experience.
I also can relate to “White Rabbit” by Jefferson Airplane. Both the cadence of the song and the lyrics capture my ascent into mania. I often find that music can convey my emotions when I don’t have the words. Here is a video of their live performance of the song at Woodstock (with lyrics):